How to Survive being Alone
Am I alone? Is alone not just a state of mind? I don't know where to start with this, yet inside of my heart, where truth and honesty and acceptance reside, I know the answers lie there within. The longer I am single, the more access I have to this protected, mostly ignored and pushed aside part of my heart. The longer I am single, the more desire I have to search for these answers in order to both gain and keep up my strength. I tell you, that my strength wanes, rattles, tilts, and shakes; more than I can begin to describe. For the most part this "strength", it is merely a shell, a cocoon inside which the true and vulnerable, the loving and forgiving side of me takes shelter. I thrive in here, I can own my thoughts, plan how to paint the outside of this shell so people are entertained, awed, made to laugh or cry, by the creations of the me inside. Oh yes, we are all decorators of our outer casing. Whether we realize it or not. My imagination runs wild. I can ...