How to survive!

I am just thinking about monogamy tonight, and is it actually a natural state of being…for any of us I mean? How does one survive a monogamous committed relationship with out fear, insecurity, doubt, jealousy, dissatisfaction and that is just to name a few? I am going to go through the 13 rules of surviving in a committed relationship, bear in mind that this is all coming from my perspective!    1.   You fall in love. You experience deep sweet desires, irrepressible lust,   butterflies in your tummy (this could also be gas, caused by anxiety of waiting to see if they call or come to see you that day). I guess you need to be chilled, and cool, and not bossy and needy. Men love their space, their boy time. I was the boys girl growing up, so I am very well aware and versed of and in this sacred "GUY TIME". Believe me ladies, they really get up to very little, I have borne witness to this too many times to mention, and the occurrences at these events are too mono...

Well, today started and continued in the same vain as it commenced; confusing, unsettling and to be all round honest, utterly dismal. I have no idea what it is exactly that is troubling my thoughts, I have kept busy all morning, walked the dogs, sent emails, cooked soup, cleaned and re arranged my sons bedroom....I even did my workout first thing. Yet even amidst all this distraction, hustle and bustle, I was, and still am, ill at ease. I have had some friends that I have gotten close to recently, perhaps too close, perhaps too many expectations on myself and them. I tend to do that. I tend to jump in feet first and hope I surface to air after I plunge into the water. Sometimes, this surfacing to take that very much needed breath, is harder and longer than I had previously hoped. You become red in the face, desperately reaching for the top, using all your energy and strength and force of will, only to discover when you do hit that surface, that what you thought you were jumping into,...